a few days ago i realized something. i realized that when i hold grudges against people, i’m not doing it for a justified purpose. i’m doing it because i’m stubborn. i’m that typical “i’m right. you’re wrong. end of story.” type of person. if i believe you treated me wrongly, i’ll immediately start drifting away from you until we’re not friends anymore without hearing your side of the story. there are so many people i’ve done that to in my life. i’m not saying i didn’t have justified reasons to do so with all of them, but some of them, yeah. and i feel really bad for it because it’s all coming back to me now. buuut, that won’t happen anymore. hopefully. i’m trying my best. you live and you learn, i guess.