everything's not lost

Safer in the Forest/Love Song for Poor Michigan / La Dispute

Have you ever watched a slow thaw come around?
Have you waited in the cold and hazy blue?
There’s an airport there out near the edge of town.
I’ve been thinking too much of you.
Settled in that still forest like another phantom or another shadow cast 
By choice a noiseless chorus blows through the leaves and trees and brings a peace at last
From a place where the song kept changing just when he was starting to get it,
when he was starting to trust there’d be a day he’d find a way to keep the rust at-bay,
There’d be a day he’d find a hum to help him muffle the past.
Like thunder underwater, he hears it fading and feels no pain at all.

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“After sundown, before sleeping, I am the worst of me. I am a mess of these old themes and the murmur of half-dreams whisper seductively and stage scenes. It’s fear fiction, these visions, caught somewhere between delusion and prophesy. What I haven’t done, what I’ve wanted to, and what I fear you have, becomes reality here. “

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a Letter / La Dispute

“I think the thing is that I shut off from everything. From friends and family and my own ambitions. From having fun. I just shut off from everything. Self-defeating? Yeah, probably. But I don’t know that I had total control over it. And I’m not sure it even matters why. Sometimes things happen and you can’t do anything. Plus, I’m the only one who deals with it anyway. So if everyone could do me a favor and just put their fingers down and—and keep your mouths— Sorry, I know I seem angry. I’m not I, I promise. I just know I did this to me. And I will deal with it accordingly. And I don’t need opinions from those never a part of it. Don’t need them pointing out my problems, they’re mine. Don’t need reminders, I know better than anyone. And yeah, I know, I should be finding another way. I know that I should be out seeking a substitute. But just forgetting never really made sense to me. So I haven’t been.”

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noroomforskeletons:

La Dispute - all our bruised bodies and the whole heart shrinks

Tell me what your worst fears are. I bet they look a lot like mine. Tell me what you think about when you can’t fall asleep at night. Tell me that you’re struggling. Tell me that you’re scared. No, tell me that you’re terrified of life. Tell me that it’s difficult to not think of death sometimes. Tell me how you lost. Tell me how he left. Tell me how she left. Tell me how you lost everything that you had. Tell me that it ain’t ever coming back. Tell me about God. Tell me about love. Tell me that it’s all of the above. Say you think of everything in fear. I bet you’re not the only one who does. Everyone in the world comes at some point to suffering. I wonder when I will. I wonder. Everyone is out searching for someone or something. I wonder what I’ll find. I wonder.

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